The girl that cried in her sleep.

Three years of love that almost killed her, no one to turn to but her abuser, the man with a hood and a cap made her feel so miserable, undying love she thought, but it ended up her being colder than ever.

He never cared about her, all he was good at was lying to her face and making her believe there was some sort of future for them, but don’t you worry girl wipe those tears away from you scarred face, since what goes around comes back around.

She would say ‘he’s changed’ when will you ever learn my dear girl? Once an abuser always an abuser, he’s gotten what he wanted and now he’s left you in tiny little pieces of madness.

My girl, don’t go to bed crying, there’s a light at the end of your sadness.

A Poem By Rachel Robin 

Happy writing x

seeking the sea- poem by Rachel Robin

The sea’s always out to play, with Sun beaming on each wave, oh how I wish I could stay,  oh how I wish it could engulf me away,

The seas so deep as well as light, your feet ever so small an tight as the shore sweeps your toes, oh how I wish I could stay, oh how I wish it could engulf me away.

 poem by Rachel robin.

Happy Writing x

Did he ever love me? - A short poem by Rachel Robin

        
He never knew how much she cried, the sadness in her eyes, where drugs was her friend and pain was her name, oh how could it have gone ever so wrong?

did the fool ever love me? did he get what he wanted by taking my heart leaving me empty handed.

did the fool ever love me?

did the fool ever love me?

happy reading x

TV SHOWS TO BINGE WATCH 2015

Happy Halloween everyone, I'm hoping you all had a good one, but first let me tell you the TV shows you guys must watch atm… you may or may not know but I'm a huge TV show nerd, and well now i would love to share my nerdiness with you guys, so here it goes:

(in no particular order)

1) the flash- A DEALS WITH BECOMING A SUPER HERO BY FACING DAILY CHALLENGES IN HIS LIFE. I LIKE IT BECAUSE I'M A SUPERHERO FAN...SO IT WON ME OVER.

2)pretty little liars- A TV SHOW THAT'S BEEN ON FOR QUITE SOME TIME, BUT THIS TV SHOW IS DIFFERENT FROM OTHERS SINCE ITS ABOUT A GROUP OF GIRLS WHOSE FACING PROBLEMS EVER SINCE THEIR BEST FRIENDS GETS MURDERED. (TRIED TO KEEP THIS SUPER SHORT SO I WON'T SPOIL ANYTHING)

3) QUANITCO- A BADASS SHOW, Y'ALL NEED TO WATCH, THE TV SHOW SHOWS A HEROIN CALLED ALEX PARRISH, PLAYED BY THE BOLLYWOOD FAMOUS ACTRESS PRIYANKA CHOPRA, THIS SHOW HAS IT ALL SCANDAL, KICK ASS MOVES AND ALL SORTS OF LOVE INTERESTS, DEFO WORTH A WATCH.

4) unbreakable kimmy schmidt- A FUNNY SHOW ONLY ON NETFLIX, I LOVE KIMMY'S CHARACTER AND ALL THE 

5) the mindy project- A SHOW THAT YOU SHOULD WATCH WHEN YOU NEED A LITTLE BIT MINDY IN YOUR LIFE.

6) scream queens- WATCH IT FOR CLASSY SASSYINESS WITH A HINT BIT OF serial killer on the lose on campus.

7) sense 8- A NETFLIX ORIGINAL THAT WILL BLOW YOUR MIND, WATCH IT BECAUSE ITS FREAKING GOOD AND TRIPPY.

8) THE ORIGINALS- WHO DOESN'T LIKE A BIT OF VAMPIRE, WITCHES AND WEREWOLVES, WELL I KNOW FOR A FACT I LOVE IT.

9) THE WALKING DEAD- just started this tv show i've been hearing this for non-stop from my best friend and now decided to give it a go well gotta say she knows what she's talking about, it's dope. all about zombies and being a badass, no one can hate that.

10) AGENTS OF SHIELD- like the walking dead i was also told to watch this by my best friend, gave it a go and i'm actually enjoying it, a hacker and superheros, of course i love that ishh

11) HOW TO GET AWAY WITH MURDER- fucking love this show, it brings viola davis with all sorts of drama and scandalous murder. (i beginning to see a pattern, guess i like tv shows that has murder in it whoops)

12) SCREAM THE TV SHOW- gorry serial murder show, how can i not love it, finished watching it in 2 days, its a TV show you will finish in two days because it leaves you wanting more at the end of each episode.

13) THE MIDDLE - a family sitcom, that i can't stop watching because it makes me happy watching it, and makes me laugh on the days I feel like crap.

14) MODERN FAMILY- a family sitcom that portrays a modern family, and daily life challenges in a funny way, i love it because it makes laugh.

15) asian provocateur- this tv show/ documentary series, i don't know what to genre it but it's freaking gold, i laugh my head off watching this, it's just amazingly good, and it just literally makes you sit on your couch and cry with laughter. (the tv show is only available in the uk bbc three)

Here's to our future.

Quote of the day: "sometimes you win , sometimes you learn"
I don’t really know where I’ll be in 5 years’ time, and that’s me being brutally honest, we spend half of our lives in education, and trying to make something out of ourselves, and hoping we’ll be happy and successful one day.

What I’m trying to say is that I’ve finally hit the point in my life where young people have to decide what career path they want to go into, and my first thought was, "someone please make me 5 again", since i had no idea what i wanted to do with my life, as in who was i? and what did i want to do?

i literally had no answer, apart from my school telling us to start personal statements, (which is like a short essay describing why you would be a suitable candidate for your chosen course at university), this is the point where i went from being an aspiring journalist to a nurse, then to a therapist then lastly decided social work was the degree for me.

if you didn't know my dream was to become a journalist, and i was even given an intern-ship with the times newspaper, but after doing a lot of research and a one to one conversation with my parents, i've realised how difficult it is to get a job in this field of work. this sudden realisation made me depressed with my life, and made me despise writing, and looked at my life negatively.

which led me to look for a new course that i could do in university, and i ended up finding a degree that i believe that relates into my personal qualities of making a difference on someone's life.

i haven't given up on my dream of becoming a journalist, I've just simply decided it's better to do something you love as a hobby rather than a job.

i will keep on writing and getting myself out there, but i will also stay wise on making decisions when it comes to life, what i'm trying is that for many years i went on planning with my life and knowing exactly what i wanted to do, to not knowing at all. 

that's the thing about our lives as in you never know what life  has planned for you, no matter how much you want to make plans for your future, our life has a different idea.

and the only advice i can give to you guys is that let life flow, and it's okay to be scared for our future and not knowing what you want to do with your life, it just takes time and experiences, but for now just enjoy your life and just do you for once.

i hope this has helped you, and if you need any advice please don't hesitate to email me:

rachelrobin98@gmail.com

you can also find me on:

instagram: rxeann

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happy writing x

I'm sorry x

a sorry note 

Greetings everybody,

simply needed to say I'm extremely sorry for not blogging for such a large number of months. blogging is something I appreciate, however as of now I have a lot of stuff going on at this moment, and I know I won't be able to deliver good content for you guys to read if I'm just not in the zone to do it.

I WILL BE BACK, AND IT'LL BE WORTH IT.

love you all and I hope you guys understand,

   Rae

   xo

happy writing x